finding the 'me'

a sabbatical from writing... the only form of expression within my control.. sigh! what was i thinking.. unfortunately the mundane life shields us away from the most important things in life... the 'me' time... somehow these three months of emotional , professional turmoil made me realise that heck im still the same person i was 8 years back.. same dreams, same aspirations , same beliefs.. somehow in a attempt to become independent i was losing that independence of being 'me'. When the diabetic pr was strangling me .. i decided to call it quits.. see what more can i achieve.. heck im already brutally honest.. imagine surviving that for years to come... well the support and love got me the further education , exposure that i desired.. but yes .. it in a way connected me back to what i wanted.. a simple home life. its acknowledgment and acceptance is a big step for me... maybe the path is clearing.. the mind has be so fickle-minded in an attempt to pursue .. actually deviate from the dreams.. sigh will i reach my destiny or can i manage to escape it..actually do i really want to escape it????don't want to be the rat in this race...just a spectator... a comfortable content spectator