the last chance

that last chance...

when you confront yourself... your own emotions.. your hopes and fears... and your instinct..

Well when do you decide that that's the last chance. Is the application of this phrase dynamic? Say for example, what makes one decide that they've had enough???or the acceptance that they're finally giving up. Is it when you lose the race you dont lose it till you want to? maybe in that way last chance is applicable.. You stop running when you decide that that's not my aim .. reaching the finishing point.Some would say heck she's giving up because of the initial bumpy ride.. some would blame it on the hurdles coming and going,.. some the instinct that has died a tragic silently brutal death...... the funniest part is all these 'some' are within me.. helping me deal with this moment. a stand that i have taken , a feeling that i have let go.. more like smashed irrepairably .. out with the old.. and greeting the new... im so out of it im so untangling myself out.. no matter what words are used, no matter what gestures are engulfed.. its gone... like the fragnancy of a dying petal.. that struggles to keep up with the other vibrant parts of a rose.. though its still providing the desired intoxication for acceptance.. there has been someone more constant more secure .. that the petal realised there ain't no sunshine for it here.. either it let goes the last traces of breath accepting the few precious moments reliving its best times.. or it wastes them in anger, jealousy or sheer defeat..

Like the petal i have not accepted defeat.. ive just accepted that i ve had  those good moments .. and now is the time for me to unite with the universe.. unaware and not expectingw hats in store.. just taking every moment as it comes and every feeling that will return... this last chance is my rising from the ashes.. and slowly opening my fragile yet determined wings....